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A PERIOD OF ANIMATE EXISTENCE (Pig Iron): Creating an environment for thought

Originally published here on Phindie.com with illustrations by Chuck Shultz.

The program notes are extensive. To summarize : we are at the symphony. We’re in the Annenberg theater, a wide sloping modern proscenium, not far from a symphony hall if a symphony hall was inside of a spaceship. Which it may have to be in the future, because we’re headed for max extinction, rather quickly. This is A PERIOD OF ANIMATE EXISTENCE, Pig Iron Theatre Company’s 2017 Fringe offering.

The orchestra tunes up. From the blackness of the stage, a vector of hazy light slices through the theater. It’s slowly tracing across the theater, like a lighthouse’s lonely peering. It feels like being up late at night, watching the light move across the bedroom walls, not sure what’s real and what’s an illusion. The low orchestral din mixes with the sounds of human biology: stilted coughs and children’s whispers. Some of us are watching the pathway of the light beam, our heads moving like sunflowers in a field. Others are watching the black void on stage. There's a crack in the blackness of the stage and it's a growing light source. It is continuously shifting its margins and shape, somehow it’s now a square, growing. Like the iris of an eye, dilating slowly. The orchestra is whirring in a beginning-of-time slow build. Act I feels like a simultaneous sinking and revealing, despite the dick swagger of immensity.

Given our collective encasement in the giant pod of a theater, we the audience are both inside the eyeball looking out, and on the outside, using our eyeballs to look into a black hole. You know, like Men in Black. We read: There have been 6 max extinctions on the planet Earth. The last one was called the Great Dying, in which 96% of all species disappeared. Everything on earth currently is a descendant from the 4% that remained.

The object of eclipse on stage begins a slow turning. Trying to describe this to you in words would suck. The important part is that the light source is revealed, there’s a shiny reflective vanishing point, and it’s rotating around. Meanwhile, the line of the horizon is rising, revealed the orchestra behind, dressed for a Missy Elliot music video, with shiny bottom-of-the-sea like tubers coming of the ground, entangling the ankles of the musicians. Supa Dupa Fly.

House lights. “Short pause” title card carried across stage, like a live action silent movie. Marilu Donavan arrives with her harp. This will happen between all the acts, and is both grounding because it’s beautiful and cheesy because it’s a harp and heaven and angels and stuff.  A young boy and an elderly woman share an exchange, on lawn chairs, looking out at us, as though we are the starry night sky. “Did you hear that?” a refrain, taking in the bigness and the microness, of us, the stars in the sky the are gazing upon.

The curtains pull back. A wall and a door and the beat drops and a cellist is playing and singing in the center of it all. Daniel de Jesus. Look him up. Causing beautiful resonant trouble. The center of it all. There’s an algorithm of bodies walking through the space, a choral arrangement moving with Cunningham like geography around the cellist at the center. It reminds me of the large scale public works of Stephan Koplowitz. There are ripples of small choreography that pass through this collection of bodies. Watching the wind on a lake surface. It’s a gentle fugue, overlapping and repetitive so that when it shifts, the reward is relative to the established pattern. I am delighted to notice that even though I feel like I’ve seen this moment of choreography many times before, when it’s done well, it still is nourishing. We too are animals, and so, even our most satisfying designs are perverted and beautiful mimicry of Nature.

Act III. Sentient Halal Cart. Humans as the reproductive organs of machines; it’s a sort of Matrix twist on Michael Pollan. Brief discussion of immortality and what the Gods know. The fucking timing is so on point. I will never look at Halal Cart quite the same. A reminder that despite Jesus, Allah, and Adonai, there were (and still are) many, many gods, much more like us, with their dances and their fallacies.

Act III. The kids show up. And the elders. The sound, set, and movement design is like if Bill Nye the Science guy recorded his show  in Mr Rogers’ neighborhood. And young philosophers Ilan (Margalit Eisenstein) and Pete (Simon Kiley) are killing it with their metaphysical volleys. Act III is Sufjan Stevens meets Christopher Guest meets Radiolab. Yeah! It’s the longest act of the three, or it feels it. The amount of wrangling that went into the clarity and cleanliness of all these little ones and elder ones is impressive. (This is the amount of wrangling that would be impossible, on say, a touring rock and roll band like, oh, I dunno, Dr. Dog.)

Gosh, the humans who  have the juiciest answers about life’s big questions are the ones we least often listen to: children and elders. Act III feels like making a whole lot of space for those answers, curiosities, bodies, and voices.

Another Short Break: Scott Shepard and Jen Kidwell feeding Marilu Donovan marshmallows. My appreciation of this is less about the psychologically loose pondering of the script, and more about the clever exhale (that’s a tiny bit erotic! yum!). If this trio did their own comedy special, I would watch.

The changeover into Act V is a sort of infinite regress, thanks to the power of professional stage hands. It’s like watching Sim City inside a game of Sim City. White on black illustrations appear as projections on the upper lip of the stage: Trilobites (think Horse Shoe crab). The concentric circles in the trilobite illustrations are echoed in the black wrestling mats with white lines being rolled by the large, clear footed stage hands in black tech gear. Everyone a functioning organism. Young men in skin tone wrestling singlets enter styled with bright red sneakers. Like the most downtown dance concert costumes ever. A chorus emerges in red and gold along the back of the stage: It’s Fashion Week in the Paleozoic Era!

The design in Act V is lots of contrasting line and outline. Maybe: mankind’s attempt at mapping, measuring, molding. Pea-tree dish empiricism. Sports teams competitiveness. False Binaries. Red on Gold. White on Black. Unlike the stage hands, who had something at risk in their stop/start found choreography, the wrestlers, who are not wrestling in any meaningful way, have nothing at risk, and instead are regurgitating start/stop choreography based on the image of wrestling. What could be a chess game played by an invisible hand, or in a dream, is instead under-achieving checkers. The rhythm of their brief spars feels un-natural. Maybe it was aiming to feel “uncanny” in a Twilight Zone so-real-it’s-too-real way? It feels like these muscular, defined bodies didn’t get the same time and attention as the youths and elders. It smells like multiple ideas were proposed here, but none of them were allowed to grow, like someone cut the burner on a crazier idea  before it got to a full boil. The rhythms are sleepy.

The movement does not use wrestlers for being wrestlers, nor use dancers for being dancers, nor use men for being men. The loudest thing here is that they are not fully an ensemble nor are they fully each one alone. An abacus of athletic, powerful, bodies organized into an equation of isolation and uncertainty could be really interesting. But compared to the other deeply resonant acts, this just feels like something didn’t have enough devising time, rehearsal time, or courage.

I looked through the program and go online to the extended credits at pigiron.org/PAEcredits. The credits are very long, crediting everyone who participated as a deviser in the many seasonal devising and showing periods. The Ensembles credited include: Contemporaneous, The Crossing, Philomusica Chorale,  Philadelphia Boys Choir & Chorale, and Philadelphia Girls’ Choir. In one of the listed devising sessions, Wrestlers of SUNY are credited for January and May 2017 devising work. Of the wrestlers performing in the show, four participated in an August devising session, I think. Beth Gill is credited as choreographer, though she is not listed as a lead artist, with the director, set designer, and composer. Scott Shepherd is listed as assistant choreographer. Watching Act V, it feels like some assumptions were made about what it would take to create choreography with the wrestlers as impactful as the choreography in the other sections.

Folks have complained about the $400,000 budget, which funded the three year project. I think citing just the overall price tag is reductive, an incendiary way to critique what’s problematic about how arts funding works in Philadelphia, and how that relates to gatekeeping organizations.

Thanks to basic arithmetic, I figure it comes out to about $11,111/month, over three years. Yes, that’s a lot in our world of under-funded arts, but in a better world where artists and craftspeople are paid for their labor, ideas, and travel, that’s a reasonable amount of money for a large scale ensemble production.

And this production, while directed by a cis white male, employs and devises with all kinds of people, genders, ages, races. And Yes, I think Pig Iron could be doing a better job — like all of us white art makers — of allyship and space making. There is no amount that is enough, in our lifetime.

No, I don’t like what the Pig Iron School for Advanced Performance Training (APT) does to the quality of life of my friends who attend, or that APT showings seem to prioritize craft over ethics. Yes, I also have larger questions about the Fringe’s tendency to curate the same local artists in at least the three years that I have been here. Yes, I think “curated” fringe is itself kind of an oxymoron, and that “curated” has come, more often that not, to mean the most produced, meaning the most most well-funded. This is a self perpetuating problematic. As far as I can tell the programming and marketing staff on the ground at Fringe seem aware of this and are open to conversation. Yes, I think the printed program pages for this show could have performed more targeted awareness and dismantling around environmental issues, instead of explaining-as-a-form-of-control program notes.

But, I also like that I’m not being told what to think, or being shamed. AND I think all the direct funding of social justice work needs to be done in tandem with the cultural labor of artists, who work to change culture. It is our job as artists to change people’s minds not by telling them what to think, but by creating environments for them to change their own minds, to see things differently, to process complex information. And I think Pig Iron did that.

Illustration by Chuck Shultz

Illustration by Chuck Shultz

Friday 10.06.17
Posted by Lily Kind
 

Alexandra Tatarsky's Americana Psychobabble

Published here on Culturebot

There are dudes outside the window cat-calling up to her silhouette. We can’t see ‘em, just hearing ‘em. Undecipherable words with a clear meaning. Cat-calling her outline, her entrance. Alexandra Tatarsky full on in character: Absurdist Red White and fake Blonde overused-Barbie-Miss-America clown. We see her leg go up higher on the door frame, stiletto dangling. She’s looking at us, seeing us hear them outside. She’s calling back at ‘em, over her shoulder, while staying with us. The dudes outside don’t know we’re here.

She goes: “Thank YOU. You. Thank You. Ew. Eeeewww. No Thanks. Ewwwww.”

She gets in and cracks a Miller Lite and takes a squat. 

and “Bomb! Bomb squad. Squat. Squat what? What? Twat to what?”

and “Money honey. Honey. Honey boo boo. Boo hoo. Yoo hoo. Boo you.”

She’s very good at this. This place where language is familiar because of airports and tampon boxes and online preachers and being cat-called and the slow drip of consumer rhetoric.

This is Part 1. “therapuke-tic inter-lewd.”

We’re in someone’s living room in Berk’s warehouse. And the cold beverage is surprisingly delicious. And there’s gold shiny tinsel curtain diagonal across the back wall. And a Fisher Price version of white picket fence. And plastic bags. The one with the original emoji on them, the yellow smiley face. “Thank You.”

She’s zoning in on each one of us. Sitting down, getting up, climbing around. Chest out butt out skinny wobbly knees. Spaghetti Strap. Whale’s Tail. Fish Face.

She gets upset: “A.K. Aka. KKK. Aka caca. Cock, yah? Cock. Caucasian. Cockadoodle doo. Do you. How do you do? I don’t doo doo. I don’t. Do you? Do you?’

Can you pull off your show in someone’s living room? You clown. Tatarsky can. The craft and the presence fill the space, close talking with the readymade intimacy of someone’s living room. She’s toured this solo all over, with alley oops from Movement Research Artist-in-Residence Program, Ringle Solo Performance Program, and a travel grant from the School of Authentic Journalism. I don’t know what it was like in other venues. But framing this as a hangout in someone’s living room late on a Saturday night is definitely an angle. 

In Philadelphia, “Fringe” is no longer short for peripheral or DIY. It’s the name of a Gate Keeper-esque non-profit organization (Eeeek!) that structures the Fringe Festival. And there’s a Curated FRINGE and a central FRINGE location attached to an expensive restaurant outside of which you can play cornhole with the spill over from Morgans Pier or maybe even Dave and Busters. And in this central FRINGE building is filled with staff people I really like as humans. (Hey guys.) Who have managed to bring to Philly some of the best internationaldance artists I’ve seen on American soil. So, that’s the quick context. 

I like warehouse spaces because the contract between audience and performer is already shaken like an Etch-a-Sketch back to a gray blank slate. When you walk in and wait around for the “house to open” in someone’s kitchen, with their used tea bag visible over there by the sink and something like a chore chart on the fridge, and you already know if they ride bikes or eat gluten or play nintendo or have lots of arts supplies or what. But you don’t know who they are relative to your being there. Maybe a friend lending space. Maybe taking a cut of the door. Maybe the performer themselves. And it’s not pristine and the staff isn’t worried about the drop cloth being big enough or the walls getting scuffed up. And if anyone threatens to call the cops they’re an asshole and your nipples can show on stage without it feeling like you’re about to get a breast exam or have your portrait painted. Besides, it’s hot in here. And there’s not gonna be a fucking talk back for fuck’s sake. But you could have an actual conversation while trying to figure out where the toilet is. So I’ll take off my shoes and I won’t be asked to put them back on. And my freedom makes me feel the performer is freer. And if she does not use that freedom well then she’s dead meat and we all know it and we might just get up if we want to, or get too drunk, or heckle because there’s no chaperone-ing.

My favorite part is: “You and me: Yummy. You and me: yummy” carrying on and mutating in a squat, taking bites of air, num num numming into Act II.

I can’t tell you much more because spoiler alert. You’re in the dark funny chaos. The first clown will dissolve and another one emerges, who is funnier for being waaaaaaay too close to people you know and put up with, or at least I do. This vulnerable, de-masked clown is a slippery slight at whomever the opposite of Trump American thinks they are with white fragility and neo-liberal selfhood hiding behind the peace industry and consumerist spirituality. 

It keeps going, carried by clever craftsmanship and performance skills. I guess we’re into Act III. There’s a bad song in there, and we all get a little sleepy. A third clown comes out like a Russian doll. And there’s a moment with the radio, a gesture of critique towards nostalgia and technology. For me, a slip: letting the trap song go by, no substantive reaction. But let’s go back to the acoustic guitar song, played poorly with expertise. I HOPE it’s a satire of everyone who is like “What Happened?” about 2017? As though there wasn’t genocide of black and brown bodies carried out by our elected leaders on our turf and on the turf of others, pretty much nonstop since I’ve been alive, and my parents have been alive, and their parents and so on. Or, it’s a moment of attempted sincerity with serious blinders. But I think she’s smarter than that. And I think she’s also still got further to push, not as a performer, because when there’s a risk she takes it (she keeps going with the Ketchup, for example. And then goes more.). But in terms of having something to say, of personal ethics, she’s staying stuck in stuckness. There’s no arrow, even though the piece is telling me it wants to have an arrow. With time, I believe there will be. Right now, regardless of her strength, she’s reaching back, over and over, grabbing at nothing where arrows should be. And she’s not alone in this action, reaching into the quiver, quivering.

Meryl Sands: Co-direction/dramaturgy / Art Design: Gin lizabet urdoc

Tatarsky performing at Berk's Warehouse

Tatarsky performing at Berk's Warehouse

Sunday 09.24.17
Posted by Lily Kind
 

A White Viewer’s Guide to Reacting to NO INTRODUCTION

 Published here on Phindie.com

Arielle Pina doesn’t have words for it. Yes, Pina can talk about colorism and she can talk about the larger structures of racism and white supremacy that frame her experiences of colorism. But there’s not a way to neatly explain how it has affected her and her way in the world. 

Pina is a woman of color. So is her sister. So is her collaborator Shari Williams. There’s no resolution for Pina, and this is what’s loud in the rehearsal studio as Pina and Williams try to negotiate an ending to NO INTRODUCTION, which opens this weekend.

As a white person thinking about how to write about NO INTRODUCTION I asked Pina what she wanted to talk about, hoping I could make space for her and step back. Pina and Williams initially suggested they rapid fire interview each other. I liked the idea. But it didn’t work. They don’t have the words for it, thess feelings and sensations buried in the tangle of racism and skin tones and shades darker or lighter and beauty and femininity and sexism. And Pina didn’t have words for it when, as a little girl, a white grown up asked Pina and her sister, as they stood side by side: “Which of you is the pretty one?”

When Pina first tells me this story I clock my sense of shock, the “No way!” insistence, from my white-lived life. My surprise suggests that this kind of thing is abnormal, an anomaly. And of course, it’s not. I have a not-very-useful reaction to search back and think about the times my physical features as a young girl were hurtfully classified by adults around me. (Often.) So my Whiteness is going to sort of eclipse Pina and the work here, which is problematic. My aim is that by charting through my reaction, by being transparent about myself, I can be useful to other white audiences also trying to do a better job. 

I had a playmate who lived next door who was bigger than me and struggled with both body image and her identity as an adopted child. Her father, almost every time he saw us side by side, told me I looked pretty, that I was beautiful, the “Lily, how did you get so pretty?” sort of playing dumb-ness of adults being poisonous, often without understanding the fucked up values they are embedding. As a kid, I didn’t know how to explain, to myself or others, why this made me feel bad. But my body knew that shit was fucked up, and I felt physically icky.  But I did not have the words.

So yes, I flashed back through all of my own shit. AND, I have to be like: No Lily. This is not a ME TOO moment. Pina walks this world a black woman and I a white woman. Yes, yes I still have the “but I’m Jewish!” and the “but I’m queer!” yips and yelps. Those voices are my ego; those voices are the blindness and erasure of “inclusivity” and “equality” (rather than equity) that cancel the particular experience of the black person I should be listening to, and erases, in an act of defensive comparison, the unparalleled violence of anti-black racism in America. So, no Lily, this is NOT a “me too” moment.

Pina shares with me that just this year, a white co-worker saw her and her sister side by side and posed the exact same question: “So who is the pretty one?”  She shares with me that a lovely, compassionate, white tour mate had never heard of colorism. Because a lovely, compassionate white person can walk around America not thinking about — not even aware of — shades of blackness, and what they mean, from moment to moment. That’s the system of Racism we live in.

In case you haven’t registered: Let’s say hypothetically Arielle and her sister wanted to actually answer the toxic question “Who is prettier?” In the United States, founded on and still operating on a color caste system, the answer to the question “who is prettier?” is: the light skinned sister. In this case, Pina. Yes, it feels fucked up to type that.  

When Pina is dredging up this memory of childhood and last year and also day to day life, her mouth twists and one eye closes, and she starts to talk in larger cultural abstractions, lifting the ideas off of the bodies of her and her sister, in favor of a general discussion, where words are available . She says, “Now as an adult, I understand that whiter skin is considered more valuable.”

She tells me briefly about colorism in beauty in the black community. We talk about the perverse obsession with the “Redbone” woman in Hip Hop, especially in the 90s. So, yes, colorism, as a technology of racism, is carried in the bodies of people of color, just as I carry patriarchal tools of binary gender roles and sexism in my body (complimenting a little girl on her outfit but not a little boy, covering up more and lowering my voice when i have to deal with heteronormative cis men). And, as in the case of other ‘isms,’ the oppressive values can live like a parasite inside the black community, alongside values that reject the larger systems. If you need more help with understanding the special place of Anti-Black Racism in America, search the internet, or go to the library. It’s hard for me to get into all that here. Suffice to say, Anti-black Racism is a particular creature, distinct from sexism or heteronormativism, it works similarly, but it’s different.

I haven’t seen the finished version of NO INTRODUCTION. As of today, the ending is not sorted out. How could it be? This shit is still present, exhausting, in Pina and Williams lives. Pina says she keeps working on it because it “feels useful right now and feels like it’s killing me at the same time.” Ugh, wtf, I mean, the way in which explaining and dismantling racism continues to fall to people of color: fuuuuuck. Me? I’m trying to stop asking for permission or asking to be educated. I’m trying to make some internet space for the unresolved-ness of ”NO INTRODUCTION, for Arielle and Shari’s exhaustion, and also for their soft power, their friendship.

I saw Pina’s other evening work “Unarmed” in the Philadelphia Fringe when I first moved to Philadelphia in 2015. I remember it made me feel a self-aware kind of un-resolution. It didn’t tell me what to think or what to do or what to feel, it surrounded me with complexity and non-answers. Oh my god yes, of course, as a white person, trying to be an ally, I would love an ANSWER, a clear action plan, a resolution. Wouldn’t I love to go to a show about colorism and leave being like: “OKAY GOT IT COOL THANKS I’LL GO FIX IT NOW.”  But that’s actually my white experience talking, the idea that I’m entitled to an answer, to an ending, to a solution. No, I need to spend more time being with the question, the problem, the hurt, the grief, the non-words, the discomfort, the bodies and the beings and their force.

NO INTRODUCTION opens this weekend:

[Headlong Studios] August 19 (7pm) + 20 (6pm), 2017; nointro.eventbrite.com; ariellepina.com.

Friday 08.18.17
Posted by Lily Kind
 

Shuttle Fish

A review of ShuttleFish, up on Phindie here. 

"If SHUTTLEFISH were at a party, it would be swaying foot to foot near the snacks, a quiet nervous vortex, waiting for you to come over. And when you get there, a low hum of agitation powers really good conversation, which crests and swells, and you’re blurting out the same thing at the same time, but also finding you disagree too. You hug before you part ways. A real hug. A good one.

Wednesday 06.28.17
Posted by Lily Kind
 

Measuring Metaphor // Fluctuations of the Body

Here's a short essay I wrote as part of intensive I'm leading on April 8 & 9 at Yoga Movement Sanctuary in Philly.    

Measuring Metaphor // Maps, Scores, Games // Fluctuations of the Body

Is it Dance? (yes.) Is it Yoga? (yes.) Is it Yoga Dance or Dance Yoga? (no.)

Athletically, Dance is not so far from Yoga. Mystically, Yoga and Dance are quite different. If Yoga is the cessation of fluctuations of the mind, maybe dancing is the investigation of fluctuations of the body. Yoga is a performance, but it is not Performance. Nevine Michaan (of Katonah Yoga) says “If you don’t want to be seen, hide.” If you want to play with the ways you are seen, play with the ways you see. If you want to play with the way you sense and feel  in your body, play with the way you sense and feel others’ bodies.

Many of my favorite Yoga teachers “have danced” at some point. How many yogis do you know who “used to dance?” or still do? For many Americans, dance is part of a past life. Dance was once their vehicle for creation, play, composition, exertion, and performance. That vehicle eventually broke down. The passengers got out, kept walking, found other ways of getting around. Found yoga. Often, the car was left abandoned on the side of the road. Unlike Asana practice, the car was not designed to age well, to adapt to changing weather and terrain. Maybe the car worked only in the binary road maps of Western stories. As Asana practice becomes more and more culturally normalized, more intimately linked with capitalist consumption, my work between Yoga and Dance, is to deepen the non-binary stories our bodies are built from and for. My work as a dance teacher and choreographer is teaching methods and skills into building individual vehicles of dancing, based on personal, rather than external, archetypes of dance as a container for creativity, composition, exertion, and performance. Nevine talks a lot about maps. I find this wildly useful. Maps are the cousin to scores, the sibling of games. I assist in engineering a greater plurality of vehicles to carry our non-binary bodies into the future, in a universe that continues to prove beyond our wildest imagination.

Yoga Asana is full of full of geometry and measures. It’s also rich with stories: narratives of heros and villians, beauty and destruction, often organized in ways that defy the dualism of canonical Western ideas of story and character. The body is a play between dualities, but not a duality itself. Therefore, stories that take place in and of the body, if they are paying attention, do not fit a this/that narrative, the binaries of good/bad, light/dark, me/them. This is inescapable for me in the biology of my female body. The shadow of the moon moving around my guts. The source of deep pain also the source of greatest creation.

Did you stop dancing? As a toddler? At middle school dances? After years of ballet? When you joined the team? Were you gendered out of it? Were you ‘not good enough’? Are you embarrassed?...What have you lost? What do you lose by not dancing? What can you gain by dancing?

Monday 03.27.17
Posted by Lily Kind
 

Annie Wilson's 'At Home with Humorless Bastard'

oh man, witnessing and writing this, at my own time of a few confusing (minor) losses, little slivers of grief, what a blessing. the show is brilliant. my review is up on culturebot. 

http://www.culturebot.org/2017/01/26609/lily-kind-on-annie-wilsons-at-home-with-humorless-bastard/

Monday 01.02.17
Posted by Lily Kind
 

Writing About Ballet Part 2. Revo-what now?

Mistakes reveal. 

http://phindie.com/what-would-a-revolutionary-ballet-look-like/

Friday 12.23.16
Posted by Lily Kind
 

Trying to write about Ballet...

Thinking Dance had me on as a guest writer for Part 1 of 2 of my challenging endeavor into writing about the Pennsylvania Ballet. Here it is. I was deeply taken with the embodied presence of Jack Thomas, who is a powerful and gleeful mover, as well as gentle and generous in conversation. High five to that young blood. He's awesome. 

Thursday 12.22.16
Posted by Lily Kind
 
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